Today I may feel like shit. Today I may not be able to cook a meal for my daughter, we may have to eat sandwiches, or left-overs. Today I may not be able to take a shower, or brush my teeth. Today my thinking may be so skewed that I cannot even hold a conversation with someone. Today I may not answer the phone or emails. Today I may feel like giving in and giving up. Today I may feel defeated. Today I may isolate. Today I may be so exhausted but I cannot sleep!
But all of these things that my body is feeling and all of the thoughts that my mind is entertaining, will pass.
Over the years I have learned that I will not feel these things indefinitely. And I have also learned from my living breathing experiences, that these dark periods of demoralization are normal reactions when living with chronic illness. Periods of demoralization do pass.
During these times I have found that just admitting (if even to a few people; and I don't even have to elaborate on the details!!) to these periods of dark times, help strengthen me to walk through the seemingly hopeless times. I have learned to be willing to believe that these dark times do pass- because inevitably they do.
My body has experienced many residuals that have lead to physical disability, but I do know that though my body has gone south, as long as I'm willing and open-minded, I keep learning new tools to live, move and have my being.
But all of these things that my body is feeling and all of the thoughts that my mind is entertaining, will pass.
Over the years I have learned that I will not feel these things indefinitely. And I have also learned from my living breathing experiences, that these dark periods of demoralization are normal reactions when living with chronic illness. Periods of demoralization do pass.
During these times I have found that just admitting (if even to a few people; and I don't even have to elaborate on the details!!) to these periods of dark times, help strengthen me to walk through the seemingly hopeless times. I have learned to be willing to believe that these dark times do pass- because inevitably they do.
My body has experienced many residuals that have lead to physical disability, but I do know that though my body has gone south, as long as I'm willing and open-minded, I keep learning new tools to live, move and have my being.
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